First Time for Everything

This is my third child--you'd think I'd have this figured out by now, but I am realizing our priorities change when we need them to change the most. For the first time, I have a desire to "stay home" with my kids without the worry of what I am accomplishing out side our four walls. I am sure this is appalling to some of you. For me, it's been a learning process.

Eric's birth and jaundice opened my eyes to a lot of scenarios I hadn't previously considered. What if I had given birth to him early--i.e. they couldn't stop the preterm labor. I did not comprehend the emotional and mental challenge that would have been besides the "book knowledge" of the physiological struggle Eric would face. "Book knowledge" is one of my weaknesses. For when they are learned they think they are wise. . . you know the rest. I cannot believe how short sided I am. This is undoubtedly one of the Lord's tender mercies in my family's and my behalf.

Contrasting Eric to Luke, I am also realizing how quickly they grow and change. It's made me want to be at their every crossroad. This world is too chaotic not to give our children constant encouragement for righteousness and happiness at every turn.

These are a few thoughts that have culminated in my desire to leave "worldly achievement" behind and focus on the rearing of my children. It feels as though there is so much to do and teach in their behalf!

The simple proverb, "sleep when your baby sleeps is ringing in my mind." Eric is asleep and I'm getting drowsy myself. Guess it's time to take a quick cat nap.