Everything has stabilized. No changes this week. A good sign after a week of "taking it easy" on "modified" bed rest. There have been tons of helpful people--I owe a great deal to each of them.
I've been in a considerable amount of pain off and on this week. I was a little surprised to learn everything was still the same. For the sake of the baby, this is the ideal situation.
For me, it's a little embarrassing. All this bed rest, help and service when I have been stabilized for several days now and not know it. Ryan and I have decided it'll be best if I "take it easy" on the "modified bed rest" until 34 weeks, then back to normal life. If this is anything like it was with Suzanne, it'll only get more frustrating for me.
With Suzanne I started laboring at 26 weeks. I was dilated 2 cm and then completely stopped laboring. I was on "bed rest" for weeks. I was finally induced at 39 weeks because by body was randomly starting and then stopping labor. Needless to say, the baby stays safe. My frustration comes because I am always wondering what I can and cannot do without tipping the balance--this is especially unnerving when there are so many people taking time out of their regular schedules to help. Only for me, it to seems as though nothing is really wrong except for the constant pain I experience the last few months of pregnancy. Pain which seems to be created in some oblivion and has no purpose at all.
The other challenge is the emotional preparedness I try to make "just in case." Maybe that is part of my problem. So, when everything is well, I have wasted all this energy expecting the unexpected.
How whiny is this? It's a blessing, I do realize that.
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